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Thursday, December 29, 2011

Goal Picture!

So I was trying to organize my pictures the other day when I came across one from 2003 (I think). It's a picture of me and my triplet cousins at a family wedding. I want to say that I was under 200 pounds in this picture. It would be the summer after I graduated from high school.


Since I think I look pretty decent in this picture, I'm going to officially label this as my 'goal picture.' If I could look like this again I think life would be pretty sweet. Now to find a piece of 'goal clothing' to try to fit into!

Wednesday, December 7, 2011

Believing vs. Doing

I thought about making a video on this topic, but figured I was due for a blog post anyway, so here I am! I know some of you may be wondering what happened to my posts about the 90-Day Challenge...well, Thanksgiving happened and threw off my posting schedule, but they will be back in full force soon!

But anyway, the topic of 'belief vs. action' came up in our church small group last night and someone used the example of knowing that eating right and exercising is good for you, but doing those things doesn't always follow right behind. Logically it should, but that's rarely the case.

I've actually been beating myself up a lot lately because I do the same thing. I have the knowledge and know-how to lose weight and eat right, but day in and day out I still make mistakes and bad choices that keep me treading water rather than moving towards my goal. And it frustrates me to no end knowing what I'm capable of, yet squandering my days away and making no progress. Unfortunately the frustration and and anger of failing time after time really knocks down my confidence and self-esteem and leaves me wondering (or doubting) if I'll ever be able to accomplish this.

That thinking then turns itself into a self-fulfilling a prophecy and what do you know? I'm left with regret for the day that I've wasted and the pounds I've not lost (or even have gained). That then translates into eating poorly and skipping workouts due to the bad moods. It seems to be a vicious cycle I can't seem to shake myself out of.

I've determined that I have a hard time focusing on the next step I have to take and am distracted by the big, overall goal. I always have "lose 80 pounds" looming over my head while I should be focusing on eating healthy for my next meal, or making my next day's workout count. I know I want to run a marathon, but have a hard time making sure I can run 2 miles at a time. But I just can't get myself to consistently do so without slip ups, collapses and failures.

I have many questions as to how I can be able to change my mindset or focus, and not nearly enough answers. What works for one person doesn't necessarily work for another. I've thought time and time again that I've found the motivation to get my mind focused, but it fizzles out quickly. So I'm left wondering what's wrong. What do I need to do to finally get my mind in the right place to accomplish my goals? I'm open to any suggestions you may have, but I feel it's just something that I need to keep working at.