Productivity Amid Distractions

Well I've certainly found out a lot about myself these last couple weeks. It's interesting because these aren't new situations I'm finding myself in - I've been through this kind of thing before. This isn't the first time in my life that I've felt overwhelmed, stressed and disoriented. It's not the first time I've had an ever-growing list of things to do and had to figure out how to use my time wisely. So why am I realizing new things now as opposed to every other time I've been through this?

I've always known I was an organized, plan-things-out-before-going-forward type of person. It's a trait I'm glad I've inherited from my mother. I make daily lists. I organize my desk before getting staring my work. I schedule my days. It's when I stop doing these things that I start to come apart at the seams. So what does this discovery say about me?

Does it mean that I am fully dependent on a set schedule and shouldn't deviate from it without risking a meltdown? Does it mean I need to learn how to adapt to changes and still be able to accomplish what I set out to? Does it mean I need to scale back on my To Do Lists? I think I'm going to have to go with Door #2, Wayne <---- (click)

Why do small hiccups in my "plan" completely send me into a tail spin of accomplish-lessness? While this pertains to a majority of my assignments for myself, it sadly rears its ugly head the most when I'm in a groove of losing weight. I need to stop having mini self-pity parties and get right back to where I left off, not go on a week-long binge session of Taco Bell, pizza and soda...

September 2nd is getting closer and closer every day, and I made a promise that I'd be down to 199 by then. *GULP* - I can't afford any more time off to feel bad for myself!