Believing In Myself

For the first time this season, I felt that the "theme" of this week's Biggest Loser was actually legit and helpful. To be honest, this has probably been one of my least favorite seasons of BL. Not only did the contestants start out a bit smaller than in seasons past, they're also losing less weight as a result. Now I'm not saying that I only enjoy 400+ pound people getting wasted by Bob Harper, it just seems like the producers are trying a little too hard to have a "theme" to the entire season - "No Excuses."Although it was humorous to see someone voluntarily go home after Week 1 (because he'd 'learned all he needed to know'), and to see the first contestant EVER simply walk off the show (in a season toting 'no excuses'). Ha!

Past episodes this season seem to have stretched themselves a little thin just to try to prove common excuses wrong such as "I can't afford organic food," "I can't lose weight at home" or "I can only work out at a gym." Some of the in-house dynamics and actual workouts (complete with Bob & Dolvette words of wisdom) are the best parts of the show! I don't know...maybe I'm just overreacting.

Either way, I finally appreciated this week's theme - "I don't believe in myself." Maybe because it struck a chord deep within me and actually gave me something I felt I could relate to. Because to be honest, I think my self-confidence and doubt are my biggest hurdles in my weight loss journey.

I think problem #1 is that I look at my past performance - and there's nothing to brag about there. So after tallying up the number of times I've gained back all the weight I've lost, or thinking about how many times I've epic failed all over some fast food, I've wasted 45 minutes and missed my gym window. D'oh! And then repeat that patter at least a few times per week. Then it snowballs into resenting my laziness from the morning and eating junk for lunch, and yadda yadda yadda...I gain more weight.

But how about this - I start a brand new, higher-paying job in downtown Chicago on Monday (ballin, right?), and therefore feel more like an adult. Feeling more like an adult causes me to think that I need to ACT like a responsible grown-up. Thinking that I need to ACT like a grown-up puts pressure on me to actually give off the vibe that I have my shtuff together. And in order to show people that I can, in fact, BE RESPONSIBLE...I really need to stop being lazy!

Therefore, along with a whole, new work schedule will come a new gym schedule, a new focus on healthy (and controlled) eating and hopefully new results. Ready for the ride? I am!

Just an update - weekly weigh ins and measurements will begin NEXT Saturday - March 24th.